A sad feeling
Back again
Why is it so hard to communicate?
Why is it so hard to express that I need more from you at times?
Why does my heart feel heavy?
Maybe I should stop doing all that I do.
But would it get done?
I’m not perfect.
I have my moments of insecurities.
It shouldn’t come back to this.
This feeling of sadness, emptiness, abandonment.
I wanted you close but I somehow pushed you away.
I just needed you. I don’t know why but I did.
I’m sorry I’m so messed up for needing you.
I love you.
You don’t know what it’s like to be me.
To have your brain never turn off.
I didn’t mean to make you feel bad.
How can I make it better?
I can’t!
I won’t!
It won’t be better because of me.
What’s the price for this feeling?
Loneliness I suppose